autumn

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when you come to the realization that today is the first day of fall, it kind of just hits you. i mean, weren't we just in summer yesterday? weren't we still in the warm weather with the grilled peaches, corn on a cob, and hot breezes?

where did it all go?

it's not like i miss it with all my heart or anything. yeah, i do miss all the stone fruits, and the fact that i don't have to wear a coat, but there's just something so cozy and good-feelings-y about autumn. tea. pumpkins. squashes. chilly weather. big duvets. long pajamas. new wool hats. TEA.

all of my friends say they miss summer. i've missed fall. 

moving on...

it's been 2-ish weeks as a high-schooler. i feel these subtle changes arising. with age comes responsibility, but at the same time new opportunities. the other thing that comes with responsibility is homework. and no, no, i'm not complaining and/or ranting about homework. i'm just saying that the quantity of the (horrid) stuff is greater than it was last year. i have less time to really do the things that i love (i.e. recipe-making, shooting the recipes, posting the recipes, having more content for the blog, etc.) 

it's a pang in the heart, really.

in fact, i started writing this post at about 5:21ish in the morning. it's 5:52am, now. 

happy first day of autumn, everyone. 

hello? + links/photographs of my week

one the many problems of being a part time blogger is... *sad and weak drumroll*... figuring out what to write about. i guess that's why a lot of people do friday links, or color-coded moodboards, or interior posts... (*coughcough* me *coughcough*). 

i think what the point i'm trying to get at, here, is that curating for a blog is not easy. it's especially hard when you're also a full-time student. the thing about blogging (in its entirety) is that you're trying to post what you would read, yourself, while thinking about what your readers would want read, too. difficult, isn't it? you probably don't want to hear me blab on about this "ya gotta stay committed" sort of stuff, but i'm not listening!

i realize that being completely and utterly honest, and sharing that with your audience, is what makes the blog interesting because there's so much stuff about the writer and there's so much other stuff about stuff and there's so much writing and photos and information and jumbles of words and you just can't stop writing and there's just so much to do and there's so much to say and show and tell! but you can't. and when you try to blog, you get blogger's block. it happens. it actually happens to me every time i carve out some time to write here. and it sucks. but you know what? i think, and it usually comes to me, anyways. 

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1/ molly's funfetti cake from scratch is actually fabulous... does homemade mean healthy? i think so.

2/ really want to try this (vegan) farro salad with cashew cheese. have yet to make cashew cheese... maybe this is clear sign to do so.

3/ this tumblr post made me bawl. tell me if you get it.

4/ frank ocean though. 

5/ did someone say pumpkin spice latté? 

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have a wonderful wednesday, everyone.

transitions + high school

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yes, i am at school right now. yes, i did throw this type sort-of thing together in about 5 minutes. no, i'm not not busy at the moment. no, stop. i am a high schooler. yes, high school. high. school. 

it's my second day as a ninth grader. a high schooler, officially. (a high schooler with pretty rad friends, i might add). i never thought that i'd become who i am today. and what's absolutely crazy is that i have no idea who i'll be next year, or the year after that, or the year after the year after that.  i try not to think about it really, i just want things to happen the way they happen. (i'm not trying to sound the least bit deep or anything)... 

as a 14 (almost 15!) year-old middle school graduate, i realized something. i realized that i have accomplished so many fantastic, wonderful, astonishing, and mind-blowing things in the mere 15 years of my very existence. whoever is reading this now, just think of all of the great things that you have done too! i mean really. if you're 34, 19, 12, i don't care, just think. how did you accomplish those things? did you achieve these moments because you were afraid to take risks, step out of your boundaries, and assure yourself that you can do absolutely nothing?

NO!

of course not! who does that? who does any of that at all? recognize that you've done these marvelous things and gone to such an extent because you were NOT afraid to take risks, step out of your boundaries, and you were able to assure yourself that you can do absolutely EVERYTHING.

remember these three things:

1. there are no such thing as failures– only learning opportunities.
2. everyone struggles, you are not alone.
3. and don't take life too seriously.

even i have to think back to these three simple notes.

read them over and over, i promise they will get you through a lot if you remember them. 

on a simpler note, have a great weekend everyone. 

it's over

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i was walking home from school yesterday, and i thought, "wow, this is really the end."

and it truly is the end... of middle school.

and although it is only the end of yet another school year, i started to reflect what great things have happened this year. the many awesome things.

• i turned fourteen 
• i attended an amazing school
• i learned more than i have ever thought possible
• i successfully got into a high school
• i rediscovered my love for art and drawing
• i started to read again
• i started this blog
• i started to cook
• i started to bake
• i started to write
• i started taking photographs 
• i became comfortable with aloneness 

i have learned a tremendous amount this year. many of which are not noted on the beginning of this already long list. it could go on. 

i can admit i have very much changed since the beginning of the year. and i am thankful for the people who have helped shape me into the young woman i am now.

to my parents, teachers, peers, and others, i want to thank you all.

i cannot wait for the amazing changes of next year. i can already see great things.

summer has finally begun.